saying no

i said no.

to a really great opportunity. it would have been really fun, a great growing experience and a dream come true adventure.

i said i was going to say yes, but then cried myself to sleep with a tummy ache. i even tried to write an email saying yes, but couldn't. i finally wrote one saying no, and then waited a few hours before sending to see how it felt.

i finally had peace. my head and my heart were in alignment. nothing inside me was fighting the decision, so i said no. it feels so good to say no sometimes.

but sometimes it's difficult when it's something you really want. it can mean letting of dreams, choosing to turn in a different direction or continuing right where you are. often it means choosing to grow up a little more.

if you listen to that still small voice in the deepest part of your heart and follow it, then you will find peace. that makes it a little easier and provides comfort. that's when you know God has got you in his hands.

the good news:
i'll be around these here parts for a while. yay! this makes me happy.

photo by me: sunset in porto venere, italia