Wednesday, January 12, 2011

through my heart's eyes

I can't stop thinking about this.  I truly do want to open the eyes of my longings.  All this brings to mind another scene that I can't stop thinking about.  In Eat, Pray, Love, Liz is talking with Khetut, the Balinese medicine man, for the first time when he tells her to see with her heart.  This rang so true within, that I literally felt myself sit up straight, finally paying attention to what my heart was trying to tell me.

I immediately had this image in my mind, and after several weeks of carrying it with me and envisioning what  life would look like through my heart's eyes, I painted it.

I'm just trying to open the eyes of my longings and learn the direction I want my life to have.  I am a great thinker.  Often I can stay in my head, thinking and trying to figure things out.  More often than I want, my head gets in the way of my heart and my thinking can hold me back. I'm learning that my head is much more fearful than my heart, which is an interesting thought. I guess my head wants to protect my heart. It's been hard for me to maintain a good balance of heart and mind, but I am learning.

A couple of weeks ago, I met with a dear friend who has the gift of helping others see themselves as God sees them.  As we talked, the connection of living the life I envisioned for myself with God's help was strengthened. Since then, as I have truly tried to let God in more fully to open the eyes of my heart and learn how to see my life and self through God's eyes, I feel more at peace and happier. I'm hopeful that I can learn how to balance all this better within myself, because I like the difference it's already making in me. 

1 comment:

Angela said...

Beautiful thoughts. We should chat soon.